Its been a while

Its been a while since I last blogged.
Well, just to share some stuff I came across for the past six months.


since new sem started, I been busying with all kinda stuff- intern, 21st party preparation, school works, SMF, netball, Christmas planning, KL trips, Penang getaway.. Just to keep and distract myself from the dreadful feelings and memories.

somehow there's still 10% of my time I cant stop thinking of everything we had been through, subconsciously.

Happy 21st, Merry Christmas, Happy New year, Happy Chinses New year.. were what you been sending to me, so what's next? Happy valentines day? Yea, today is the day.

Life is unpredictable, and so humans.
everything is changing every second, am I cherishing every moment every second I had and do sth really meaningful , this is what I been self-reflecting and asking myself every single day.




at least for now, I know what should I focus on, keep on track and moving towards the goal and what I've been always looking for.

BE PATIENT< LIVE LIFE< HAVE FAITH

Broken heart become brand new

Time to settle down?
finally its the day before I ended my lonely trip
not that lonely along the journey though
cus I've met so many ppl around the world
exchanging diff ideas and culture

start to feel the stress that im gonna face when I go back
Insomnia throughout the night before flying off
Its been a while since I left the place, its been a while since I left you
Fears and worries are flowing into my mind and make my stomach so sick again

Somehow there's a voice keep reminding me that You had prepare everything for me
I am ready for home and every single challenges that coming soon
I don't feel homesick at all though
just miss my precious brother
he's the one who never failed to make me smile

the conclusion for my trip in new Zealand and Aus:
I never regret for travelling alone oversea for so long, in fact, I would do it again;
I'd learnt to let go so many things that affected me so much and make me stronger than I do;
especially when my result was out, was so surprised that I could take it even that I failed one mods and still have to extend for another year;
finally I realized where's my faith actually come from;
It really build up my independence and trained me well to live alone;
lastly I'd achieved two of the goals in my life which is bringing my parents backpacking around NZ and I did Bungy for my 21st

but those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.

ISAIAH 40:31

 

what faith can do

 

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning

Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know

Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try

Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do

Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

Learn to be strong and fearless than you do.

     

God I look to You
I won't be overwhelmed
Give me vision to see things like You do
God I look to You
You're where my help comes from
Give me wisdom, You know just what to do

The 55th day I been in New Zealand, the third week in bay of island- PAIHIA

days in paihia is somehow lonely and emo, i choose not to say it as bored, cus i really learned a lot from my host and enjoy myself here. The only sad case is i am staying alone in my little cottage, enjoying my isolated life. woke up in the early morning, prepare puppies meal, do some cleaning job, horse riding, driving around the island, do some groceries shopping, watch movies...
Life is just so simple and relax here, hardly imagine im going to face the horrible causeway jam in a month later. LOL.

There's two things i figure out and realized in the past few weeks, could be the purpose of God placing me here -to rest completely in his wonderful creation, every morning i woke up, i feel so blessed to be here, although every nightmare freak me out, although the cold weather make me so sick, but somehow i feel so blessed for being here, especially all the unknown, surprise that he had prepare for me ahead.

 

Everything is so unpredictable, things can change in a second, especially human. So what actually change your personality and your mind? what makes you to be another person? what happened on me two months ago is actually a trivial matter, small little trial in my life. Compare to my host, Bucko,

when the woman that you loved and been tgt for so long, change entirely after having two kids and decide to divorce with you, i can tell how hurt and the pain he'd been through when he share with me about his marriage. When your partner refused to compromise whatever you do and say, what's the point of being tgt? if such situation keep going on after marriage, where is the commitment that both had agreed while signing the piece of paper? Does "commitment" exist in a r/s nowadays? i doubt so. Cus he/she just tend do take for granted for what you do for them. So what's the point of cherishing and loving them? 

 

Love your enemy, love the one who hurt you deeply. I swear i cant. However, in God's forgiveness, I've learnt what is forgive and forget. I am not even fit to hate my enemy or judge them, cus im not the perfect one either.

 

I can't run away from my fear forever, so lift up your head and face it, Sylvia Teong.

Learn to be strong and fearless than you do.

 

 

 

view from my house in Paihia

Hi, Kiwi! Hi, New zealand!

Two months ago, I was struggling with that idiot shitty exam
Two month later, I am traveling alone in New Zealand

Its the awesome scenery that set me free.
Its the people that I met cheer me up.
Its the bff who take very good care of me to ensure that I eat well everyday here.

Thank you dear Lord, for bringing me here, in the right time, in the right place.

I cherish every moment here, every single ppl that I met, every single crazy stuff that I had done  with a bunch of mad ppl, every single place that I had been, every single things gonna be wonderful and awesome throughout my trip I suppose.

Made up my mind to blog and share about the story throughout the trip.

对你妥协就是对我的伤害

对你妥协就是对我的伤害

regret for dropping the job
a little regret for taking up this course
pretty regret for missing out so many nice ppl and events that i ought to join
kinda regret for not insisting my dream
terribly regret for spending my time on you

hiding the truth from you is the cruelest thing that i have ever done to myself
trying to be strong yet you can perceive my weakness thoroughly

i just hope i can still hold on till the day i leave
i miss those who being my side who always supporting and encouraging me
The one who know me well

ppl trying to show concern, but i choose to become isolated
so im no longer the cheerful, hyepractive monkey sylvia
or i have no such characteristic before
depression, i rather say bye to you than continue tourturing myself


TOLERANCE, i need you to ease my hot temper and bad attitude towards others
PATIENCE, i need you to understand a person without having prejudice against him/her
FAITH, i need you to achieve my dream
LOVE, i need you to forgive the person i hate and get rid of all the evil thoughts,selfishness
Jesus, i need you cus you are all and the only one i have in my life

1 2 3

Hello, it's been a while since my last post which is like 8mths ago?Lol.
Been struggling for exam these days. Things nv get better and better for me as well.
Keep reminding myself for not complanning, losing temper and no more sigh!
Just wanna be stronger than i can. Cant wait to fly away 2 months later. To be frank, you will nv know how sick i feel towards everything right now.

If everything can restart, i swear i will stay as far away from you as i could.
sometimes your selfishess and ignorance just make me ill.
i doubt u can spell the word "dissapointment".

soft hearted me, just forgive and forget, or perhaps i still hate you in the deepest of my heart.

 

 

Youe grace is suffice for me

WOWHO,offically graduate from DMS. Thank God, finally i get through this. Never failed a single modules throughout this one and a half year.

how hard, how stressful, how tough, how much i had went through and finally i had passed it. with tears i suppose?

thanks bro&sis who be there for me, your encouragement and care was damn so important to me. (u know im mentioning you if you read this!)
and my beloved daddy n mummy who support me all time, not just financially support, with love and stil love. i know how much both of u needs me to be with you, and understood why God put me there instead of a thousand miles from away from you.

Thank you Alfred yue who be there and helped me so much in the entire course. I can said that i really dont have a true friend in DMS, however, Thanks for ur companion since sem 1 till now.Stupid hamburger who tc of me. thanks for ur love and understanding.
Joseph Fong,i got A for macro, so yea, thanks for ur "dou Hua", do buck up for ur studies too!

well, i know there's a new "disaster" waving to me. tsk tsk.
i shall say : SIAN LAA, gotta back to study again.....sigh-ing?!!
               or
i shall say: Thank God, ur grace is suffice for me to face a new challenge!

What's in your mind?

Psalm 27:13-14

“I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD 
In the land of the living. 
Wait for the LORD; 
Be strong and let your heart take courage; 
Yes, wait for the LORD.”

Psalm 27:13-14

April's smile =)

Well, It's been a while since i last updated my blog.
Hmm.life goes well recently.no worries.I'm doing pretty good right now.
Being moody some times though.
Finally I'd learnt to accept all these, step by step, of course.
Dream still could be fulfilled one day when you willing to leave it in God's hand.

Thank God,it's seem like my condition getting better.


Still, gonna see doctor if it goes worst.Just don't wanna let this illness kill me.

I cherish Friendship, I do.

But to those who don't appreciate the friendship between me and her/him, sorry and bye bye.

No resentment towards you, just don't want to see you and let you to take a place in my life.

HI!im SYLVIA TEONG!!( lame~~)

hmm,my life is kinda boring, kinda depressing
as wad i said jobless make me feel useless and soon i'd become hopeless
yea yea yea i mean it

let's see
how am i gonna spend the next 3 lonely bored weeks of holiday
probably finish reading up more than 5books?

(sounds hardworking, bt somehow always fall asleep after 15min reading.zZz..)
probably catch up with old sch mates as much as possible? (yea,that's what im doing)
probably go around somewhere photoshooting? (time's to upgrade my lousy skills)
probably visit da beach for one day sun taning ?(yea,i wanna be AFRICAN or PHILIPPINO.zzz)
probably compose a new song for myself? (sounds great man!)

probably go for a picnic outing with my baby monkey and my 2 little soft toy?

( sounds lonely.ZZZ,seems like only bb monke and soft toy could accompany you)

probably buck up the language that i wanted to learn for quite a long time? ( too bad im kinda impatient and lack of motivation at the moment)
probably learn to cook?( cheh, absolutely is forced by my DEAREST MOM!)
probably...

probably...
LOL feel free to text me any suggestion if you read this stupid article


well,i just miss the bangkok trip last year at this time
miss the travellers, kind ppl, guest house n haunted hostel that i stayed,the big bag pack i carried and walked around the city, Amphawa river - a small pristine village, mango sticky rice..
the bit and piece memorable stories still lingers on my mind
looking forward to the next trip

Thank God i get to share my burden, my tears with few elder sis recently

yea,its kinda realease and relief as well
indeed overcome every obstacles ain't easy
but only when we go through these
we got to have faith in You more firmly
especially You listen to our every single prayer
i really can feel that You're there for me
You're there to give strength and assure me that my life is full of your grace
i shall live in joy and rely on your mighty hands

At the same time,i pray for every of my single friends who are studying abroad
give them strength, secure as well whenever they are
whatever they're doing they shall know all is to glorify your name
This is my prayer in Jesus's name, Amen.

Appreciation

if your good friend seems doesnt appreciate what u did at all, do u still care for him/her?
i hope i do regardless of the dissapointment.

Take care and enjoy your life there. Perhaps what i did was just an fake action to you. Well, forget it.




Glad to chat with my dearest=)

i just hope i wont be dead because of all these shit stuff!!

对，我快要窒息了！
i know i cant take the stress any longer!

i just wanna shout!!
i just wanna a hug!!
i just want my sis to be with me and comfort me!!
i realize that i really need someone that mean so much to me to be my side right now

been isolated for 2 weeks
yea yea yea
i choose to be like that
in fact
im on the edge of giving up myself

feel so helpless right nw

kindly gimme a big smile to comfort me when u saw me
perhaps i would feel kinda relief from everything

emoh

Home sweet home

no matter how

in your life

in your heart

FAMILY

is the best

Thank God i have them in my life

hesitating

Well,im still hesitating..
no idea where to go..

what you will do when you only left the only option to choose?
the second alternative? you have to strive for it
20 years old, somehow i still fear of the kinda feeling i used to had in 2011.

Lots of uncertainty surrounding me, and im wondering if every thing had already become hopeless for me.

tell me how cheer up when u have no motive at all towards anything
teach me how to fake a smile in front of the person you love

no doubt,i just wanna hide my feeling.

Jesus is the reason fro the season!

Christmas is coming! I love this season,it means the year is ending soon.and every Christmas is a good time to share the good news to my fellow friends&family.
On top of that, it's a wonderful moments for me to have a gathering and fellowship with my bro & sis. And so,im looking forward to celebrate with all of my dear..
however,i'll never forget what's terrible news i gotta faced before the celebration-- my results s releasing soon, been worrying these days.
must admit that i never did my very best for it,but still hope the outcome would be fine.



So sorry,Mr. Joseph.bout today.Hope you're fine.Cheer up ya.




sigh-ing,never seen him for many days=(

A little sharing

Recently come across a great article and would like to share with those who often visit my blog.=)

Here it goes

In Puritan communities, church attendance was required, and the most commonly read books were the Bible and Pilgrim's Progress. Truly faithful believers in Jesus Christ were unsure of their salvation, and those who did not believe were assured by their outward practice of righteousness.

In this sermon, Thomas Hooker essentially says, "Some of you people show up at church and think you're right with God, but you're not." He presents Abraham as a non-negotiable model of what saving faith is, and he outlines six footsteps of Abraham's faith. He informs the congregation that if they do not meet any of these footsteps, they are not truly saved. Wow.

I listed them below, pasted from the original sermon.

1. "The first step which Abraham took in the ways of grace and happiness, you shall observe (Gen. 12:1) to be a yielding to the call of God."

2. "The next step that Abraham, and so every faithful soul, sets forward is this: that whenever faith cometh powerfully into the heart, the soul is not content barely to yield to the command of God, but it breatheth after his mercy, longeth for his grace, prizeth Christ and salvation above all things in the world, is satisfied and contented with nothing but the Lord Christ; and although it partake of many things below, and enjoy abundance of outward comforts, yet it is not quieted till it rest and pitch itself upon the Lord, and find and feel that evidence and assurance of his love, which he hath promised unto, and will bestow on those who love him."

3. "The third step of Abraham's faith was this: he casteth himself and flingeth his soul (as I may say) upon the all-sufficient power and mercy of God for the attainment of what he desireth; he rolleth and tumbleth himself, as it were, upon the all-sufficiency of God."

4. "I say, he must not only depend on God, but he must wait upon the holy one of Israel."

5. "This is the next step that Abraham went; and this you shall find when God put him upon the trial (Gen. 22). ...Methinks I see the saints there reaching after Christ with the arms of faith, and how when anything lay in their way, they were content to lose all, to part with all, to have Christ."

6. "The last step of all is this: when the soul is thus resolved not to dodge with God, but to part with anything for him, then in the last place there followeth a readiness of heart to address a man's self to the performance of whatsoever duty God requireth at his hands."

Summary: "Now gather up a little what I have delivered. He that is resolved to stoop to the call of God; to prize the promises, and breathe after them; to rest upon the Lord, and to wait his time for bestowing mercy upon him; to break through all impediments and difficulties, and to count nothing too dear for God; to be content to perform ready and cheerful obedience; he that walketh thus, and treadeth in these steps, peace be upon him. Heaven is hard by; he is as sure of salvation as the angels are. It is as certain as the Lord liveth, that he shall be saved with faithful Abraham, for he walketh in the steps of Abraham, and therefore he is sure to be where he is."

Are you challenged? I certainly am. Thomas Hooker encouraged his hearers to examine themselves and exercise discernment. He encouraged the faithful to remain steadfast, and he comforted the saints with the hope of reward in heaven. My professor said, "Walking in the way of Abraham is very, very, very, very hard, but God is watching, and he is crying with you, and he is joyfully conspiring ways to reward you. He is with you, and he is saying, 'Finish. Finish. Finish. Finish. Finish.'"

I will leave you with Hebrews 12:1-2, "Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God."

love never failed

a fantastic camp though i never partipate in every section

leia,timothy,grace kim,de min,xin

and all the youth

u guys really did a good job for God

kinda miss the past few camp that bought me up in Jesus Christ

indeed when we come to different age

we encounter something that are tough, went through with tears and also joy

somehow when you look back

u'll realize how beautiful,how amazing the obstacles is

and indeed how it had changed you to be better

bro&sis

i thank God for giving me the chance to live in Him and grow with you people

the love among us never fade

as Jesus Christ is with every of us

=)

I ain't going back to december

time flies
gonna say bye to 19 soon
how's life i had been through the past few month?
miserable?suffer?
not really
somehow it was full of grace

experience sth that really strengthen my heart & my soul

rebuild my minimum level of tolerance

December

it's time to reminisce of what u had done within 2011

寻找

thanks for being beside me,my 2 angles.

Think of what you can do for God instead of asking what He can give you.

life doesn't go smoothly every day

but when you live with a grateful heart

you'll find that how blessed you are

when you learn to rely on God

you 'll realize that there's nothing to be afraid

as He is the only Almighty God

《寻找》

我曾经像一只小小飞鸟

飞跃在这蓝天海上

我无时无刻彷徨无助

找不到可以倾诉

我曾经像一只小小飞鸟

穿梭在这城市之中

我正在寻找那慈爱双手

那就是住耶稣

主啊 我要回到你身旁

我要回到你身旁

那慈爱双手

正等着我

来拥抱我

主啊 我要回到你身旁

我要回到你身旁

那慈爱双手正拥抱我

那就是主耶稣

what actually you want for in your live?

pursuing just money, fame in your entire life?

if a person asked you to give up everything you have and follow him,will you do so?
i doubt i will

been seeing ppl pursing for nth for their life

perhaps im one of them

ended up die with regrets

you may feel contented, satisfied,happy with everything you'd obtained right now

but one day it turns nothing to you

im not trying to be pessimist or thinking negatively

ppl tend to think why care bout that

just cherish every moment u have

that's true

however

one day

when u encounter troubles, barriers ,obstacles that mess up your life

you feel that you are absolutely nothing

in fact the moment u would feel helpless

don't ever try to think that you are able to cope with it

human have limited power

so please admit your weakness

i fall down,i lost,i had been through these

that's why i understand and realized that how important it is to have faith in God

somehow i refused to pray,refused to study bible,resisted holy spirit's sound

eventually every thing getting worst and worst

God doesn't become my first priority of my life any more

can you imagine the severe mistake i had made

i recalled the day i baptised

my NEW Born day

how i made the commitment in front of Jesus

how joyful i was during that time

but why now everything ended up like this

oh please Sylvia teong

don't you had believe in Him?

yet you refused to leave your life in Gods hand?

why

because you don't understand how Awesome and Almighty your God is

because you still remain a coward with little faith

because you never wait and listen to Him patiently

because you still live in your own world, a materialistic world, ppl whom surrounding you

because you never admit yet repeat the mistake you had made

"who m i"

"why i am here"

the 2 questions i ask myself frequently

Thank you,Lord

without you im really nth

每一次回想所经历的一切

看到的是你丰盛的恩典

Deo Volente

There's nothing impossible in You, Amen.